So my son just tells me they will have a boy the latter part of this year. This is such joyous news and I am so excited I can hardly stand it. I am so happy for them, so why do I feel like a deflated balloon right now? I know I was caught up in the excitement of it, and while sharing of this news I realized the one I wanted to share it with the most isn't here. It is stinging me right now wanting to share this news with Steve and I miss sharing our hearts about this wonderful news. I know he already probably knows this and all, and I am good with where he is and moving on, but it still stinks. Just when you think you've progressed beyond the pain, something opens up. I never expected to cry today but you just never know when it will come.
Now I am doing my grieving right now and plan to be done by the time this post is completed. I will not dwell on the negative side of this glorious news too long, because that is not the point. The point is, I am blessed beyond measure to be having a new grandchild who happens to be a boy and will have fun playing with him and Hannah. The minor inconvience of suffering a moments grief about not having his grandfather here with me to be as elated as I am, will not ruin my day. I have learned to ride the waves of grief all the way to shore now without jumping off too soon. Cowabunga, dude, God has seen fit to send us a grandson. I choose to be happy, I honor the memory of Steve and our life together and I know he is as happy as I am about this. I also choose to move on and see life as a single grandparent and think of amazing ways to spoil my grandchildren.
New life brings new hope and another person into my life to love and another person in my life to love me. Who can possibly be lonely with so much love around. Brennan your MeMere loves you so much already and I look forward to meeting you. God you are the most perfect creator and I thank you for this wonderful blessing in our lives. This post is ended and I feel the need to go shopping for boy stuff.
Now I am doing my grieving right now and plan to be done by the time this post is completed. I will not dwell on the negative side of this glorious news too long, because that is not the point. The point is, I am blessed beyond measure to be having a new grandchild who happens to be a boy and will have fun playing with him and Hannah. The minor inconvience of suffering a moments grief about not having his grandfather here with me to be as elated as I am, will not ruin my day. I have learned to ride the waves of grief all the way to shore now without jumping off too soon. Cowabunga, dude, God has seen fit to send us a grandson. I choose to be happy, I honor the memory of Steve and our life together and I know he is as happy as I am about this. I also choose to move on and see life as a single grandparent and think of amazing ways to spoil my grandchildren.
New life brings new hope and another person into my life to love and another person in my life to love me. Who can possibly be lonely with so much love around. Brennan your MeMere loves you so much already and I look forward to meeting you. God you are the most perfect creator and I thank you for this wonderful blessing in our lives. This post is ended and I feel the need to go shopping for boy stuff.
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